It seems i’ve lost my best friend and the pain is killing me slowly. I haven’t been able to hold onto anything over my life for more than 4 years at a time- except for her. No matter what i had my best friend and even when i wasn’t with her she was on my mind. Now, she’s on mine and i’m not on hers. I don’t know whether to cry or throw up or pass out over this. it hurts that much. This makes it 2 dangerously important people in my life that have blown me off this year. This one has a special place, though. this one wounds me in a way that i can’t heal so easily.
someone explain to me how you can be friends with someone for practically your entire life and they can screw you over to go to the hamptons, because i can’t for fuck’s sake figure out how that works! i’m so fucking upset right now. it sucks to realize that your best friend doesn’t care enough to call you back. i guess she’s just too busy with her new friends- you know, the ones she HASN’T had since first grade or anything!