HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO BECOME AN ACTRESS?
it’s getting really fucking discouraging…ALREADY.
i don’t even know how i’m supposed to get into college at this point. I just want to be a theater major, that’s all! Between auditions and common apps and HOLY SHIT JULLIARD D: their monologue list is ridiculous. 2 classic 2 contemp and a monologue in verse? i have to memorize the canterbury tales in full verse and accent…AND I MIGHT NOT EVEN GET IN. AS A MATTER OF FACT, I’M PRETTY SURE I WON’T D: and none of the schools that i want to go to will let me major in film studies which would be fucking amazing but is apparently not happening.
i’m dejected D:<
i need to calm down.
i don’t know why i think writing it on tumblr will help.
i’m so sorry to put you all through my stupid rants.
sometimes i wish i wanted to be a psych or speech major like the rest of the free world. They don’t have it easy, but they have it easier.
i ALSO learned that 90% percent of actors live under the poverty level for their entire lives. that doesn’t bother me too much, but it bugs the shit out of my mother who is like BACKK UPP PLAANNN and i’m like NOOOOOO NEVVERRR.
i know i can act. isn’t that enough? I’m sorry that i don’t want to set myself up for failure from the start, but, i don’t want to! I am absolutely serious about this and have been for as long as i can remember. I’m not about to give myself a reason to give up! like let’s be an actress LOL JK LET’S BE A TEACHER. no.
absolutely fucking not.
What would Kate Hepburn do? NOT fucking give up, that’s what.
so i’m about 100% sure that all those college reps can suck my dick. typing that made me laugh, i’m so immature.